My children

I can't believe it's been so long since I've posted to this. I just wanted to start writing here again and I'm going to start with this short post. I've read a lot about kids being bullied and it breaks my heart. Here is how I always knew I would raise my kids...

My daughter will learn to cook. She will learn to clean. She will learn compassion and be kind to people who deserve it. She will be strong minded and  know that she can do anything she wants in life. She will learn to drive stick. She will learn to change a tire and the oil in her car as well. She will learn all of the things she will need in life so that she will need no one... But will keep the right one for the right reasons.

My son will learn to cook. He will learn to clean. He will learn compassion and be kind to people who deserve it. He will be strong minded and  know that he can do anything he wants in life. He will learn to drive stick. He will learn to change a tire and the oil in his car as well. He will learn all of the things he  will need in life so that he will need no one... But will keep the right one for the right reasons. 

And if and when they encounter a bully they will know what to do

A death sentence

And so today is the day that we cut ties. Today is the day that we begin to take charge of and some sort of responsibility over ourselves.

Life is not so easy. I am sure this comes as no news to most. I have been labeled a great guy. A death sentence.

What exactly do all great relationships have in common? There must be a common thread that allows them to thrive and grow. I think it is a dedicated respect for one another, a deep rooted friendship and an aspirations to the same goal. On the part of the man, he must love and nurture his woman in ways that she may not have even known she needed to be nurtured. He must understand that she is his equal and perhaps doesn't even need his kindness and caring... yet provide her with a love and respect that she has never known. Never let her go hungry for compassion and passion. Never let her be thirsty for romance or touch. Give her the things she needs and allow her to see her future in not only your eyes but deep in your soul and then as she gets lost in the absolute thickness of your love and passion for her... remind her it is real. Tell her she can loose herself because you never will. Show her you have her back and will be there in the good and the bad. Let her let go of the past and anything in it that may have made her feel insecure because she is now as she always was... your equal. Your partner. Your love.

I am a simple creature. Complex in my thoughts yet simple. All I need in this world is a woman to love. All else will fall into place. So yes... I have been labeled a "Nice" guy. A death sentence indeed... but in my heart I MUST believe that a woman is out there who is looking for me. I will stay my course. I will look for her.

If you happen to see her, let her know where I am.

3 Years

I haven't posted on this blog in almost a year. I don't know if anyone even comes here any more. I guess that's fine. I can use this place as a little sanctuary.

I know is begins to sound redundant to say the same things over and over again but the truth is today still feels surreal. Its been 3 years since my father passed away yet it feels like only moments ago. I truly wish I could post about all the great things going on in my life but honestly there isn't much of that. And its not that its all bad... its just so not where I would like to be at this point.

I long for the days where I would have my friends over to hang in the front room while mom and dad went to Toni and Eddie's to play cards or the countless summer nights down at the boat eating hot sauce with scungiele in it. (is that how you even spell scungiele?!)

I miss the innocence and simplicity that was my life growing up. I miss seeing my mom smile and know it was genuine and true. I miss Toni and Eddie... and I miss my father.

So that's whats new. I miss you dad and I love you.

Always your son,
Christopher